15th December, 2014 – Today our baby girl, Danielle, would’ve been 2 yrs old. We should’ve been able to organize a birthday party for a bunch of rambunctious 2 yr olds but instead I’m sitting here writing a poem for the little girl who left us too soon – a poor substitute for the life we didn’t get to share. I write with a sense of deep sadness but also deep thankfulness for the restoration that God has sent us in the form of our new baby son, Jaden.
Here is a mother’s attempt to give something to the child who is always close and yet so far.
As Time Rolls On…
Time still rolls on silently,
And many moons have passed;
The winter left forever,
And Summer’s here to last.
I hold my ray of sunshine,
I kiss sweet, smiling face;
But my special ray of sunshine,
Won’t take your special place.
I often try to see you,
Behind my quiet eyes,
To touch those happy moments,
When I watched from at your side.
Then I wrestle with your memory,
To bring it to it’s knees;
There’s just so much a heart can take,
Before it starts to bleed.
Shall I tell you that I love you;
One thousand times, too few?
Or how I look into the mirror,
To search my face for you?
Shall I tell you that I miss you;
How I long to hold you close?
How it’s not okay to show it,
In this cold, impersonal world.
God found me back my laughter,
And I choose to live again;
To be a worthy mother,
Chase my dreams until the end.
You’re underneath my laughter,
Beneath my conscious mind,
In every single breath I breathe,
Yet, forced to lose you many times.
There’ll come day I’ll find you,
Then you’ll be mine to keep,
No tears for long lost moments,
Beyond the time to sleep.
Dance, my Fairy Princess!
Be happy and be free,
One day we’ll fly together,
Oh, precious part of me.
Dance, my perfect Princess!
Dance, in Jesus care,
Send me love in morning sunshine,
Send me hope in skies so fair,
Touch my face in falling raindrops,
Send me laughter through the trees,
Blow me kisses upon gentle breeze,
Oh, precious part of me.
– Melissa Domingo
15 December, 2014
This is one of the most touching poem I have ever read. You have a very strong and beautiful spirit. God bless, Mel.
I know I can never lessen you grief ,but I can understand it…You words leave me teary eyed and I am feeling a lump in my throat as I read through your lines,that so gracefully ,yet subtly describe your torment..and as you say , there shall definitely come one day , when she would be yours to keep…..take care..
Lovely Danielle, the little one I never knew but oh so precious. Love you mama Mel
Beautiful Melissa. Hugs.